August 10th, 2014

What is creator? Pressure heat and time, he said, with the
confidence of a king from his couch. And though he meant
to steal some warmth from the night his words only served
to stoke a fire that was burning very deep, beneath the carpet
and the couch, and the eight floors of apartment. And though
we had danced in hot rooms and and whispered in corners and
ran our bodies over other bodies and away from them, this was
better and worth so much more. With every word you speak you 
lay a path others may walk on. This feels like work, like the
sighing and satisfied muscles after a day in the field, swollen,
breathless, fully aware of themselves and beautiful. When you
crawled into bed finally at 6:30 in the morning, you heard birds
bathing in the neighbor's pool. You fell asleep to a fully risen
sun and wild and secret baptism. 



August 9th, 2014

I got worse at spitting the cherry pits into the flower pot full of cigarette butts on regent
street as I neared the end of the cherries.  I lost the last two pits, one to an overspit and one
to an under, and this seemed important, although I know it's not. The temperature is 84
degrees, but in other words this means I can wear a loose tank top and nothing else as
I sit on the front stoop spitting cherry pits and talking to Brett about love, again. I am
always talking to Brett about love and he is always listening and offering advice, but mostly
the slow nod of companionship and the yes, yes, these are strange things, the desires of the
heart, the impulses of the body. I tell him how attraction doesn't always have to do with the
eye and how I have tried on different kinds of love like dresses and the one that I like best
isn't the most flattering on me. I don't say these words, but he knows what I mean anyway
his nod assures me. Earlier when we sat on the patio David drew a heart on my left arm. It
was elongated in its shape. Now while I sit next to Brett talking about love, he snaps a
picture of the heart and when I see it I think of the verse place me like seal over your heart, 
like a seal over your arm, and how I still have many muscles to tone.